Saturday, February 12, 2011

Sometimes, I cry

First Thing:
Nate told me tonight that he loved my family.  Not loved as in liked a lot, but loved as in they are his family too.  He said, "I love them in my heart".  What a nice boy.
Tonight we toasted to the Piper Pit.  That is where our life began. I remember playing footsie when he told me he liked me.  I remember taking our first pictures together as a "couple" there, right before he left for Kentucky.
While we toasted, I was trying some Beringer White Zin sparkling wine.  I highly recommend it.  Espeically for Valentine's Day.

I know this is cheesy and no one actually believes it, but I've come to believe it's true.  I believe I have fallen more in love with Nate.  I love him more today than the day we got married.  I love him more today than the day he proposed.  I love him more than the day I said, "I agree".  I know it sounds totally dorky and like I belong in an LMN movie, but I am sincere.  Being married to him is just about the greatest adventure I could embark on. 

Second Thing:
Sometimes I still tear up or cry when I hear about military homecomings from overseas.  The Coming Home preview on Lifetime made me cry.  I was remembering what it was like to have Nate gone and what it was like when he came home.  Although when I initially saw him step into the airport, I didn't feel a rush of emotion.  However, thinking back on that moment I feel a lot more emotion.  Perhaps it's because I know that I will have to go through all of it again, only this time we'll be married. No big deal, though sometimes I cry. 
[I would like to say that just because my husband is in the military and has served overseas and will serve again (though, hopefully not), I am not a military wife.  I am the wife of a man in the military.  It does not define me.  I do not want to be dramatic.  I am not reaching for someone to call me brave.  I love my husband and I love his uniform.  I love my country and I love his defense.  But my identity does not come from his choice to serve and what follows.]
Third Thing:
Weddings make me happy.  Especially weddings of best friends.  Today I celebrated the sexy part of marriage at a bachelorette party for a dear friend and had so much fun.  I can't wait for her to marry the man God has chosen for her.

Fourth Thing:
Tomorrow I am going to try and find a souffle to enjoy.

You should too.

1 comment:

lvillegas said...

It makes me cry too, and if you remember I (unexpectedly) cried when I saw Nate for the first time after Iraq. Also, you already know my feelings about being a "milwife"
One last thing. I love Nate too, in my heart.
And that's saying a lot because you can remember how our relationship started out..